Friday, January 22, 2010

Sometimes I feel like a door mat

I pour every ounce of my being into relationships and when others don't in return, it really bothers me! Sure this is a flaw that I own, but I expect out of others what I expect out of myself. I know, I know! You could probably point out five gazillion more flaws in me b/c Lord knows I'm full of them.

I have this friend who repeatedly lets me down and it drives my emotions to the moon. It seems like just when I'm done and over her and all of the hurts, she prances right back into my life somehow. This is such toxic friendship and I cannot shake myself from her. To be honest, we are absolutely NOTHING alike. My husband laughs constantly b/c every time she does re appear there is endless drama going on in her life. Looks like I'm just gonna have to bite the bullet and be done with this relationship! It's a lot easier said then done, considering I am an acclaimed "people pleaser". However, I cannot live my life in limbo for an unfaithful, unreliable, untruthful friend.

Lord, please give me the strength to not hold a grudge or be angry. Yet, help me to love her as you love me. Help me to forgive her for the hurt, but also let go and move on.

Shew! I feel better. Sometimes it just helps to blow off some steam!